Tennis

TennisI’ve been watching the US Open this past week and I am always amazed how these athletes, both experienced and not so experienced, are so focused.  How, with being on a world stage watched by millions, they are able to show up and actually perform.  I’m lucky I can focus for ten minutes much less hours on end.  And that is not just mentally but physically as well.

My son played tennis for a number of years and I was a nervous wreck watching him in the stands.  I can only imagine what it was like on the court.  And then multiply that by so much more with these pros and my respect and awe goes to another level. Add to the hours of practice and the dedication it takes to keep going even when you lose and that determination is an inspiration to me.

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Reaction

ReactionToday was  particularly important for me as it was a huge lesson in action and reaction.  I have to say I’m not particularly proud of my action and reaction but I understand where it stems from.  Yep, I slipped from trying to be more patient.  Guess fatigue played a huge part in my behavior. Our neighborhood has gone through a change in the last 5 or 6 years where older homeowners have died and their homes have been sold to people who do not live in the homes.  They quickly renovate them to give them street appeal and then make them a rental property.  That should not be a problem except that some of the tenants who move in have no vested interest in the neighborhood.

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Lila

LilaLila or Leela, as it is sometimes spelled, is Sanskrit for play, spontaneity or sport.  I am trying to get more lila in my life.  I use to be very “lilaful” when I was younger, looking to new adventures and possibilities.  I felt I had a path and purpose to what I wanted to be doing for the rest of my life.

I realize now the “rest of my life” can be a pretty long time.  I am grateful for having my health and  the opportunity to have seen many amazing places and things in my years but now I’m having a harder time trying to be playful.

You would think after raising a child, securing a career and being at a place where I can somewhat relax I would be content to just be.  But my busy mind keeps me aware of the fact that I have enough time to embark on many different endeavors.  I just can’t seem to nail down anything in particular so the feeling of being in limbo is just as frustrating if not more than  knowing what you want but not being able to have it.

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