I don’t know which is worse. They seem to go hand and hand. I have this burning desire in me to speak out and teach. I know a lot about style and how to “put it together” on the outside but inside I am not so “put together”. My idea of perfection and how it should look keeps me from doing. And my world has been all about perfection or my idea of perfection. And that idea keeps me fearful enough to remain frozen in my true desire. And day after day after day the frustration grows and the fear of not being good enough keeps me from doing anything.