MaladeI very rarely get sick.  I try very hard to eat well, take my vitamins, practice my yoga, write, meditate, etc.  All of the things that are suppose to keep you healthy and stress free.  Right.  In theory that sounds perfect but in reality sometimes it just doesn’t work.  I don’t know if I have a cold or allergies or I’m  just plain tired.  Not being in my own bed and traveling tends to disrupt my already dodgy sleep patterns.  Call it age or stress or just out of sorts but I haven’t had a decent night sleep in years.  Even when I was in Bali I found myself wide awake at three in the morning.

In every article I’ve read about well being one of the most important item on the list is sleep.  Sleep deprivation can cause any number of crazy symptoms to go awry.  Lack of patience, heighten vulnerability,  and sheer discomfort come into play with lack of sleep.  Add a cold or allergies and it’s a recipe for burn out.

But it is also a very telling sign that something else much deeper is brewing.  I have a lot on my plate right now and although I think I am keeping it all under control I have to really be aware of taking care of myself.  The fuzziness in my head today is not just from whatever bug I may have picked up.  It is also the fact that I need to focus of making sure I carve out some me time in the midst of an upcoming daunting schedule.

That means saying no to pushing the envelope when I really want to go out or stay up later than I should or have that one glass of wine at night when I know it is going to be relentless the next day.  My body is not the same as it was even ten years ago. As much as I would like to think that I haven’t changed that much, youth does have one up on me.

I still feel really good but what use to be easy for me in the past takes  more energy now.  That energy, for both mind and spirit, is still as important just different.  So as much as I want to say merde! to not being able to go at full speed 24/7, I have to admit I’m human and say thank you for having such great health 99% of the time.

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