A New Start

Silence use to be very difficult for me. Didn’t like silence. Ever. Felt uncomfortable when someone wasn’t talking or I wasn’t talking. Mostly I wasn’t talking. Because my brain never shut off. The thoughts were swirling around at such a pace I often got headaches. And it seems it had to come out somehow and usually out of my mouth. I was the social butterfly who always had something going on. Always was planning some kind of activity. In high school and college I was in every club and went to every event. Wanted so much to be popular and well liked. Even was voted wittiest in my senior year of high school. Could never say no to anyone. Was so afraid they wouldn’t like me. So I told jokes and acted silly and made people laugh. Continue reading →

Having spent so many years in the “beauty business” I have come to the conclusion that I don’t really know how to define beauty. There are so many ways to look at the beauty of things. Nature, art, people, music; the list goes on and on. But everyone has their own idea of beauty and how things affect them. I know I love jazz and classical music, impressionistic art, certain features in a face, the light at a certain time of day. But what I don’t think is beautiful others do and I can’t make them wrong. But sometimes I do judge without even being aware of it and that’s not beauty. Continue reading →

Recently I have been having a hard time feeling secure. Secure in my relationships, my job, and my life. The world is pretty crazy right now on so many levels and I believe this has something to do with me feeling so unsettled. What I thought was going to be a smooth transition into slowing down has not been possible. I am determined to create more space in my life and teach more. Continue reading →