I have had my moments when I feel really good about myself. Like I am on the right track and I feel like I have hit the mark. I have lost the weight, the clothes are a bit looser and I don’t feel self-conscious about tucking my shirt in my pants! You know, those moments when you feel like you can actually tuck the shirt in and not feel like you are wearing a size too small! Recently, before I lost the weight I always felt like I had to wear a jacket, sweater or vest so that I covered up what I looked like in just a t-shirt or blouse. You know what I mean…
Age and gravity cannot be kind at a certain age and no matter what you eat or how much you exercise nature has a way of having the last laugh. Now you can go with it or you can cover it. I think there are ways to make you feel sexy or classy or stylish regardless of what you are trying to conceal. It starts with what’s in your head. It’s that old adage of really feeling good about yourself. There is no concrete way to put it down on paper. It’s just a feeling. And I find as I get older it seems to get harder and harder. Or maybe I’m not noticing anymore whether someone looks at me twice like when I was younger. You know how you had a sense of someone checking you out? How you felt like you looked your best so you put off that “vibe” of having it all. Nothing is more appealing than that self-awareness. Not cockiness. Just a self-assurance that you feel good with where you are right now.
I don’t know if now my head is at a different place and I am just trying to keep positive. I have to admit it is rather disappointing when you feel that maybe that spark is starting to die down. When it gets harder to get motivated in the morning to tell yourself that all is going to be right and fabulous. To go to that mirror and speak those affirmations and really believe them. To see every day the face changing. To deal with one more thing of getting a certain age.
And then I am at a place where my years and my experience step up and save the day. Where my knowledge flows freely and I make the decision that moves everything forward when there didn’t appear to be an answer. My self-acceptance flows through me and I realize that I know a lot more than I think I did. I’m challenged and I meet it with a vengeance. I stand a bit taller, pull my shoulders back and smile from the inside because I know ten years ago I would have never been able to pull that off the way I did today.
My self-acceptance for where I am right now is my style personality and I like it! I really like it! I say discover your own style personality from where you are and where you are going. Only then can you accept what is and love it.